Ocean - Angel feather

Ocean - Angel feather

Loved, Protected, Supported.

Loved, Protected, Supported.

Writing a story


I am writing a story… I might as well transform my pain into something beautiful and helpful to other people whose heart is broken…

Loving so much, losing so much


How can we love so much

and then lose so much?

Where did it all go?

One day we are so close

One day we are apart.

How can we love so much

and then lose so much?

It’s all so quiet.

One day we talk and talk

One day … silence.

How can we love so much

and then lose so much?

I really don’t know…

More silence,

More nothing.

Sunflowers

Sunflowers

Being a mother, a survivor and a woman - Part 26 - Friendships, grief, lost love, inner children and healing


I’ve been feeling a very deep sadness recently. It’s been overwhelming and painful. I cried every night for the last four days.

It’s the pain of my little inner child I feel. since I had a healing session with a shaman lady, I am in touch with the girls within me more than ever. I saw them and felt them. I felt how much love and reassurance they need from me. How hard it is for one of them to trust, how angry and hurt she is. I felt so much love for them. The adult part of me was asking: ” But, while I support them and my daughter, who is going to support me?”  The answer is: God, the Universe.

I am still grieving for the parental love I never had. I have so many wonderful friends. I send them my Love and my gratitude every day, no matter hard it is. I acknowledge their support. But no matter how much they love me, there s still a part of me who needs to grieve the unconditional and the ever present parental love she never had. I never knew I had so much sadness within me!! I had to stop feeling  as a child in order to survive.

What recently with my ex fiancé is, for my small inner child, yet another person she loved so much who betrayed her, rejected her, abandoned her. Its more grieve, more pain, one to many goodbye to say and it bloody hurts!! It feels like it will never end so she hurts and she doesn’t want to live anymore. How much more can she take? How much more can I take?

So I bring all this pain and this sadness to God/ the Universe when I chant and I pray.

I even sometimes feel gratitude for to have met and loved this man because I felt so much love… and what happen now pushes me to listen to my pain and to lean from it in order to heal.

Today, it isn’t so bad so I enjoy the inner peace that is mine whilst it lasts.

Thank you for reading.

“The language of Letting Go - Melodie Beattie”

Sadness

Ultimately, to grieve our losses means to surrender to our feelings.

So many of us have lost so much, have said so many goodbyes, have been through so many changes. We may want to hold back the tide of change, not the change isn’t good, but because we have hadso many changes, so many loss.

[…] Many of us have so much grief  to go through. Sometimes we begin to believe grief or pain, is a permanent condition.

The pain will stop. Once felt released, our feelings will bring us to a better place than where we  started. Feeling our feelings, instead of denying or minimizing them, is how we heal from our past and move forward into a better future. Feeling our feelings is how we let go.

It may hurt for a moment, but peace and acceptance are on the other side. So is a new beginning.

"God, hep me fully embrace and finish my endings, so I may be ready for my new beginnings"

This quote describes exactly my journey.

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“You say
you don’t want to live
yet every morning
when the alarm rings,
you press the snooze button three times
but eventually you find yourself
in house slippers
and brushing the knots
out of your hair.
You get out of bed
and walk out that door
to start another day.
Doesn’t that count for something?”

Wake Up by M.D.L
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“I won’t beg someone to love me. I learned long ago that there is no use in hopeless pleas of trying to make someone stay. I am too good to chase someone who does not know my worth and I am too wild to keep waiting for someone who doesn’t acknowledge my value. I want to be loved unconditionally. I shouldn’t have to fight so hard for it. I do not have the time to prove to someone that I am worth it. I shouldn’t have to prove any of that; I am worth more than that.”

Ming D. Liu, A Story A Day #138 

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