What matters most...

Being a mother, a survivor and a woman - Part 5

Last week, I had a time off of motherhood. I needed it. This week, I was able to have the greatest time with my Daughter.We had so much fun just sitting in the park, having grass fights and giggling as well as watching movies late at night. It was a long time I didnt feel so much love and happiness being with her…
In the last few months,I felt completely detached from her at times because of my Depression and the old pains poking out of me…
So I enjoy the Love very much! And so glad Im still here to experience it.

Being a mother, a survivor and a woman - Part 4

My Daughter asked what mental health issues are and how do you get them…
She now knows a bit about my depression and anxiety.
So I tried to explain in simple terms how when you are a child your parents give you love and protection but sometimes it doesnt happen that way…and it creates sadness and worries in.ones heart…
Since she was young, I taught her to identify and express her emotions without shame.
It hasnt always been easy, it was hard for me to deal with her emotions while I was learning to feel and express mine. It still is at times.
So she knows its ok to cry, to feel sad, to laugh, to be a crazy and funny… She saw me cry and angry too…
She knows its good to talk about things…
We had some very emotional moment but we reconnected and we love each other no matter what…

Acceptance

I accept I suffer from Depression
I accept Im scared
I accept Im sad
I accept I feel completly lost and confused
I accept I dont know what to do with myself
I accept that I feel its wrong to take time out of work to look after myself
I accept my feelings of complete failure

Dear God and Angels I am willing to accept myself just as I am… Lost, confused and sad…
I give it all to you so it can all be transformed into Love and into Light… Thank you